Thursday, December 23, 2010

SO, I have been meaning to write since Tuesday night (besides the little tiny post I posted) but there is this thing called the Internet which is an amazing and helpful creation but it is also the worst thing ever thought of by the human mind. I have wasted so much time this week on the Internet doing absolutely nothing of any real purpose.

When I wasn't wasting brain cells on facebook or playing tetris, I was cleaning, shopping, and cooking. We have made so many cookies in the last three days. Actually, I haven't made many because my sister and my Mon think I am incapable of making satisfactory cookies. So I burnt a few and broke a few. Big deal. I did make stuffed shells though, they came out nice. I don't usually cook, I kind of hate it and so I don't real put a whole lot of effort in when I actually do cook and that's probably why everything I make comes out like crap. I should work on that...

I have done so much cleaning though. For some strange reason I am the one that cleans up after my mom and sister cook. I have no idea how that works, but I feel like I have cleaned the kitchen a few to many times in one week.

I have also visited the mall twice. Or was it three times? I don't remember. But the mall is crazy and I don't understand why we couldn't do our x-mas shopping in one day instead of spreading it out over 3 days. I had to get my last gift today (a mall gift card for my family secret Santa) and I COULD NOT find the stupid place where you can buy those. If your wondering, it's in this tiny little store near sears on the right. I swear we walked around the mall 3 times before we finally decided to look at a directory to see if we could find it. Good times. But, all the shopping is done. I still have to wrap somethings (hahaha, just kidding. Everything.) Ya gift bags!

On Monday I went to a family Christmas party. It was my mom's mom's side of the family. There so many people. Dinner was crazy. We had like 3 dining room tables put together plus the coffee table for the little kids and there still wasn't enough room for everyone. There are so many cousins. First, seconds and thirds! I can honestly say I do not remember all of the names. It was kind of awkward because I hadn't seen any of my family for so long because i have been spending a lot of time at my dad's. It was really good to see everyone again though. And it was so much fun! My cousins are so funny! I don't even know what they do that is so amusing, just everything I guess from the things that they say to the way that they act around each other. Oh I love my cousins, there awesome.

Tuesday was a very interesting day to say the least. It was also an incredible day. Jon came over and we hung out all day. It was awesome, we never get to do that. Ever. So it was really nice. We played in the snow, made a fort out of blankets, failed at making a for out of blankets, and just hung out and talked.Oh and Jon gave me his Christmas gifts!!! He got me a really pretty scarf and this hanging elephant thing ( i love elephants if you didn't know) and a beautiful bracelet with stars on it! Such great gifts! and there is a really funny story about the bracelet. Well, I think it's funny. I don't know if he does. So, he told me that he was intimidated to be in a jewelry store and that the sales lady kind of intimidated him into buying something. End story. Well, I thought it was cute. Anyway, later on we met up with our friend Molly in the old port. We went on a journey to find this palm reading place me and Jon had googled. we successfully located the place with he use of google maps on my ipod to find that it was no longer the psychic place, but an ice cream store. But then as we were mindlessly walking around attempting to find a place to eat that was vegan (for a friend we were suppose to be meeting, whom actually didn't come to dinner with us.) and that had a wide varieties of food so that Molly, worlds pickiest eater, could find something to eat. We finally stumbled upon Pat's Pizza which conveniently was placed next to a psychic and hookah place. But the lady couldn't do any readings because she had gotten robbed the night before and she didn't wasn't her bad luck to taint our fortunes. But we had a good dinner and very intersting conversations about all the prego girls at our school and about how much had to happen for us to all become friends (me moving to Windham and such). Then we went to Mexicali Blues and me and Molly bought bindis. We looked so cool walking around Portland with those on our foreheads. Then we took another epic journey to find this cafe where we were meting some more people at for a slam poetry night. I had the map up one my ipod and everything, but we still kind of got lost walking like literally 15 minutes away from where we started. We made jon go into a deli and ask this guy how to get there. We did get there eventually. It was a very fun walk although it was kind of freezing. The poetry slam thing was amazing! Jon read and he did a great job. There were so many good poets and some of them were really funny. Especially this one poem this guy read about what he was going to say to his daughters first boyfriend (intimidation and all that good stuff) and Just looked Jon just and said "yep, that's my dad". I feel like I learned a lot through those poems about the people reading them, and life. It was really cool. One the way home (my friend was driving) I could not give proper directions to my house at all, so we had to wipe out her GPS. Oh technology.

And that's been my week. More to come I'm sure...


Tuesday, December 21, 2010

My mind is filled with deep thoughts and rather hilarious things that spill out onto the page like poetry. My room is trashed and I don't know how it got to be. My eye is very swollen from an unknown cause. I now know where the legitimate palm readers are in the old port. I apparently don't know where I live. And my heart is filled with so much love and happiness I think it might explode. Bet your wondering what kind of day I had...

Friday, December 17, 2010

On Vacation and Writing a Blog

I really wish I was better at keeping a blog. I use to be pretty consistent about it, but that is way beck when I had a lot of free time after school and a ton of study halls. But I have been so busy with school and theater and such and I only have one study hall a week. One. And that study hall is never used for studying, it is used to hang out with Jon ;) But I am on Christmas vacation starting today! So, I suppose I could take a few minutes to get you all caught up on my terribly uninteresting life...

Well, the fall musical has come and gone. As usual, it was a fantastic show and it was a blast to be a part of. During our hell week (the crazy week before the show opens, dress rehearsals, etc) was very stressful and many of us were beginning to believe that the show was going to be any good at all. But it came together so quickly and ended up being one of the best musicals the high school has done in a while. We had so many people come to every show every night, it was awesome!

The week after the musical closed was Thanksgiving break. I didn't do much over that break. We had a bunch of people (aunt, uncle, cousins, step cousin, step grandmother, step brother) come to my dad's house for thanksgiving dinner. That went really well; everybody got along really well. it was strange, i feel like every other family dinner i have been at 9mostly on my mom's side of the family) there has been some sort of 'family drama'. But, there wasn't and we all had a great day/ night. And oh my god there was so much food. So much. Yummmmm! I swear all I ate that week was left over mashed potatoes and cranberry sauce. Oh and I got to experience the craziness of black Friday at the Maine Mall! My dad woke me up at 4:30 in the frigging morning to go to the mall. The mall. I really don't enjoy the mall when its so incredibly packed that the lines are out the door. But there were really great deals. I didn't think that they would be any really amazing sales like people made it out to be, but there truly was and I got most of my shopping done.

When we got back to school after break, we went right into hell week for An American Family Holiday (Amfam), our amazingly awesome chamber singers Christmas concert. This hell week was so much fun! There was a ton of work to be done (I untangled so many lights and measured so many things) but we all have a really great time working together. We usually convert the musical set into our set for Amfam, so that is what we spend most of hell week doing. Our set came out awesome! it was a white house and red barn painted with Christmas decorations, snow, pine trees; all the stereotypical Maine at Christmas time types of things. Both shows were completely sold out. That meant soooo many tickets to be processed. I did a lot of work in our ticket office (we literally have a ticket office in one of the music practice rooms)this year. It's fun, there are just so many tickets that have to be pullet, envelopes to be addressed and so forth. Our guest for Amfam this year was Sutton Foster, famous broadway actress. She was the original (I think the only) Fiona in Shrek the Musical on Broadway and she was also the original Millie in Thoroughly Modern Millie along with many other Broadway shows. She is such an incredible actress and singer! And she is so down to earth. Everyone was so afraid that she was going to be a diva, but she wasn't at all!! she was so nice and easy to. I went out to dinner with her, my dad, the chamber singers officers, Linda, Anna, and the pit band. Sutton sat across from me ad I nearly peed. It was so awesome to bea ble to talk to her; she is just a really chill and free-spirited type of person. The whole Amfam experience was amazing and it was so sad the next day when it was over, but it wasn't all that bad because I got to hang out with Jon. ;)

The next 2 weeks were boring. Nothing happened, seriously. There was school and that was about it. I auditioned for the one act, The Happy Prince. It has such a good storyline, very sad though. I didn't make it. I thought I had a very good audition, and according to other people I did too. But it's okay. There's always next year. I will still be doing backstage to prove to the director (Who i think plays favorites and who doesn't like me a whole bunch, and I don't say that just because I didn't make the show) how dedicated I am.

And now here I am, on vacation! :D I spent another epic, expensive ( I seriously have $10 in my bank account :/ ) day at the mall and a beautiful Christmas lights and fireworks filled night in the old port. Tomorrow I'm off to party it up with the family!


Sunday, October 10, 2010

Columbus Day Weekend (that was like 3 weeks ago)

So I'm in PA visiting my godmother and my cousins (my cousins: JA and Mac, they're twins, 14 and Kay, 16) this weekend. My sis, my Nana, and me left at 12:30 on Friday afternoon and we didn't get to my aunts house until 10:30. Seriously, 10 hours in a car with my Nana and Anna is not exactly how i wanted to spend my Friday. And my grandmother is a crazy driver. I didn't feel safe driving with her. She will go wicked fast then stop really quickly and she is absolutely horrible at parking. We got so many dirty looks from other drivers. What was nice though is that she has a van and I got the back seat all to my self, so there was a ton of room. I slept most of the way and pretended to be asleep the rest of the way while listening to my iPod.

My aunt lives in a really cute town where everything is pretty much walking distance. I mean the downtown w/ shops and restaurants are about a 15 minute walk and the shopping plaza with the grocery store (which is called Acme, which I thought was weird) is like a 5 minute walk. So when we got there me, Anna, and my cousins decided to walk to a gas station to get food. It was very random. I have to say it was very awkward at first because all of us were really quite and we hadn't seen each other in a super long time. But it got better, slowly, but it did. The nexxt morning we went to a bazaar type thing where they had a ton of different booths of things to buy. My aunt bought me an awesome Burberyy purse and a hair clip. we then went to lunch at Salad Works. We don't have a salad works near me, not even in Maine i don't think. It is such an awesome place! They have the best salads. It's like a Subway for salads, but more high quality. Just saying it's awesome....

Any way, when we got home we help my aunt clean out her back yard. There was just a bunch of weeding to do especially around her wicked cool pond that has a ton of fish in it (gold fish that is). It's really pretty.

During this cleaning time me and my cousin Kay went to Acme to get trash bags. While we were there Kay bought some black hair dye. I found this amazingly awesome red hair dye for naturally dark hair, but since my sis was there I didn't buy it. Later me and my cousin went out again with her friend (without my sis) to go buy the hair dye. On the way there my cousin decided to have a cigarette. Now I know she smoked, but I didn't think she would with me around because well, she had no idea if I would tell on her or not. Of course I wouldn't, but my sis would. So, she offered me one and I took it.

Okay, so I don't smoke a lot. I have, and it wasn't as repulsive as i thought it would be and honestly i actually kind of liked it. So ya, I smoked probably to much in one weekend. But whatever, I really don't do it a lot, just occasional; I was in a rebellious mood.

Later, my cousin was about to do my hair when we got home, but my sister called my dad so I could ask him if i could dye my hair. he said no. So my aunt called him. Final result: i got my hair dyed an awesome shade of red.

That night, my cousin Kay, went to a pary. My other cousins and my sister watched a movie and I talked to jon on skype for like 5 hours. I was sitting at the garage at like one in the morning ( i was in the garage so that no one would hear me talking, they have a small house). My aunt came in and asked me if Kay was home yet (her curfew was at 12). So me and my aunt went to go pick her up. My aunt was pissed since Kay told her she was getting a ride home. Kay was obviously drunk when we picked her up and they fought the whole way home. So when we got home, I stayed out side with Kay till 4 in the morning and we talked about everything. It's sad. My whole family has always thought of Kay as "a bad kid" since forever because her mom is so chill and she was dressing like a teenager since she was 10 and she never made the best decisions, but she is really not a "bad kid". She has just been through so much with her dad being sick and pretty much dying her entire life. She has done a lot of things she shouldn't have. But she is trying to change. She even made the decision to transfer to a Private Catholic school to get away from all the drama at her other school.

The next morning we had to go to church, I was pissed. I hadn't been to church forever and when I do go to a church, I don't go to a catholic church like I was brought up in but the UCC where my dad works. And recently I have (for the time being) decided that I am agnostic, mostly because I don't know what I believe, but I do know that i really can't believe any more the things the catholic church teaches, I respect anyone that is catholic or any other religion, I just don't want to be a part of it anymore. So, anyway in church there was some southern minister talking about abortion the entire time, about how it was murder and how you shouldn't put your kids up for adoption because it's wrong. I don't even want to get into how mad this made me but I think you can understand knowing that I am adopted. And it also really made me mad how happy my grandmother was with his sermon, but I told her I just didn't want to talk about it because I would get in a fight with her. She looked hurt, but I did not want to get into it. Also at church, when my cousin JA went up to get the Eucharist,she forgot what to say. (You say 'Amen' after the priest says 'The body of Christ'.) and then the priest was like "Amen?" and my cousin took the Eucharist and like, booked it out of the church. It was really awkward because thee priest like stoped the communion and stared at her running out. Maybe because she didn't know what to say or maybe it was because she was wearing all black. I was the next one in line for Communion and i didn't take the Eucharist because I felt like it was hypocritical since i don't believe in God. He probably thought our family was crazy.

After chrurch we went to the mall and my aunbt took Kay, Mcari and me to ger our second holes in our ears done. My mom does not approve of this and we didn't ask her but we got them do anyway. (I had them done about a year ago, but my mom saw them and made me take them out). So we got those done, and theuy looked graet. Then we went shopping and then hung out the reat of the day. Oh yeah, Kay went in a car with some of her guy friends when my aunt wasn't home, but my grandmother was. my grandmother told her not to go with them, but she didn't listen and she just left. She came home later and got into this huge fight with my grandmother about how our whole family assumes that she is such a bad person even though she's not. There is always family drama...

That night we dyed my sisters hair from brown to blonde and that's about it.

We left about 10 the next morning to go home and the ride was boring and long.

So that was my long weekend. I had a lot of fun hanging out with my cousins and my aunt and I got to dye my hair/ get my ears pierced! I also learned alot about myself this weekend: 1) I will always and forever have a rebellious side 2) so i really need to stay out of situations in which I will be tempted to do stupid things

Oh the things you learn in a small town in PA...

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Well, so I can post to blogger, but cant't read blogs. Thats stupid.


Your probably expecting some awesome post about something awesome that happened in my life, right? HAHAHA, sorry. They just unblocked Blogger from our school netbooks! So now I have something to do in all my ridiculous boring classes. I'm in honors US history now sitting at my teachers desk because my laptop died and the only available outlet is behind her desk. So, this week is spirit week because homecoming is this weekemd. Monday was pajama day, obviously I wore my AMAZING purple flannel pants. Tuesday was tie dye day. I had a shirt. Wednesday was wacky Wednesday.There were so many bizarre things. One of the teahcers was all in camo with maks and all. It was scary. I wore fishnets with cut off jeans, one knee sock that was bright pink and one of those cut of shirts witrh one sleeve. And the best part of my outfit was my blazer from private school! I was judged greatly. Today is food day. Ya food day. The homecoming theme is the 5 food groups. Juniors are dairy. I have seen so many banana and hot dog suits and people doing strange things with those suits. Okay people its not that funny lets act our age. I have also seen a chicken costume, Wendy (like the fast food restaurant), a guy in a gorilla suit (?) and people dressed like zombies. Zombies are not food. IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. Just because zombies eat people doesn't make them food related( that's what a freshman told me today.)Oh I love My school. I have seen so many crazy things. Even when it's not spirit week, their is always that one guy dressed up like a mattress. Ya someone did that, just for fun.

So i should probably participate in the class discussion on how the US has changed in terms of diversity :/ fun times


Tuesday, September 28, 2010

So, Im attempting to study for chem and I am an epic faluire at that. I am so stressed out with all my AP English work and this stupid test!!! I just wish I had till friday to study for it and my life would be so much easier!!! ahhhhhhhh I can't fail! I think I understand everything I just need more time to engrave it in my brain....I hate chem it has to much damn math! And not the easy kind :/

But it's gunna be okay. I just have to keep telling myself that and maybe it will become true.

Even though I am really stressed I am so happy, for once. It's amazing.

Side story, but Jon wrote me a poem, and it's a really good poem. (I might post it at some point.) And he left it in my locker. So sweet.

So now when ever I get discouraged, I read the poem and think of the incredible guy who wrote it for me and I can't help but smile and feel amazing. :)

Anyway, back to studying....

Friday, September 24, 2010

It's Friday night and I seriously have nothing to do. So here are a bunch of totally random and pointless facts about me, mostly for my entertainment and maybe (maybe) yours!

Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed?
Always Colsed

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
Yes, I have large quanaties of them in my bathroom cupboard

Where is your next vacation?
Thanksgiving break, I think

Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No, why in gods name would I do that?

Who do you think reads these?
People who are cool, duh!

Do you have a calendar in your room?
I have 2

Where are you?
On my bed

What's your plan for the day?
Well, it's 8:30PM, so i will be sleeping pretty soon

Are you reading any books right now?
Angela's Ashes

Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
When I am reallllllyyyyy boreed

Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
All the time, everyday

Do you chew your pens and pencils?

Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Ya, it's cute

Do you still watch cartoons?

Whats your favorite love movie?
Love Actually

What do you drink with dinner?

What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in?

What is your favorite food/cuisine?
NYC style bagels

What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Last person you hugged/kissed?
Jon and Jon

Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
4th grade-6th grade

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
This July to my boyfriend at camp. I don't think I actually ended up sending it.

Can you change the oil on a car?

Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

Favorite kind of sandwich?

Best thing to eat for breakfast?

What is your usual bedtime?

Are you lazy?
Sometimes, yes very much so

When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
A pumpkin

Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Rolling Stones

Which are better, legos or lincoln logs?

Are you stubborn?

Who is better...Leno or Letterman?

Ever watch soap operas?
Ewwww, NO

Afraid of heights?

Sing in the car?
All the time. I go crazy when it's quite in the car

Dance in the shower?
No, I feel like that's dangerous. For me at least

Dance in the car?

Ever used a gun?
BB gun

Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Some of them are very cheesy, but most of them aren't

Is Christmas stressful?
It can be

Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
A nun

Do you believe in ghosts?
I prefer the term spirits, but ya

Ever have a deja-vu feeling?
Everyday it seems like

Wear slippers?
All around the house

Wear a bath robe?
Not really

What do you wear to bed?
Mens flannel pants and a tank top

Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart?

Nike or Adidas?

Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos of course

Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Ever taken karate?
For 2 years

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
On a dare

Can you curl your tongue?

Ever won a spelling bee?
OMG NO, I am the worlds worst speller

Ever cried because you were so happy?
Ya :)

Own any record albums?
No, but my dad has about a thousand

Own a record player?
Dad does

Regularly burn incense?
No, I wish

Ever been in love?

Hot tea or cold tea:

Tea or coffee?
Coffee every morning! But teas good too

Favorite kind of cookie?
Chocolate/ pecan chunk

Can you swim well?
I think so

Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose?
Yes, i am so good at that

Are you patient?
most of the time

Ever won a contest?
Best smile 5th grade

Which are better black or green olives?
black, green are nasty

Can you knit or crochet?

Wash room or bathroom?

Do you want to get married?

Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

Do you have kids?
i'm 16 no thank god

Do you want kids?
someeday, maybe

Do you miss anyone right now?
A friend

Who do you want to see right now?

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

how come your the only one that can still make me cry? What is it that makes me cry when I have to be with you? please know that for some strange reason, I can't control my tears around you. it shouln't be like this. I can't stand the way you tell me all the things I do wrong and tell me about all the things I should be doing instead of support what I already do and love. you say you're trying to help me, but it isn't helping. Pointing out all things I know are wrong with me just stresses me out. the way you rant at me about all the things that make me a horrible daughter and a 'mean person' makes me feel like crap. I wish i could talk to you about everything without it turning into a fight, because honestley I need to talk to you. Why does everything have to be so hard between us? why do u have to yell? It really upsets me, so much. why do you have to tell me "not to look at you like that" when what i am trying to do is hold back tears. Why can't I tell you how i'm feling without being called a drama queen? that term makes me feel like my feelings don't matter. I know your doing your best and you say you do love me, but sometimes it doesn't feel like it. i know there are lot of things you do for me, but there are somethings you don't do. Like look at things from my point of veiw, or try to understand how i am feeling. I wish i i actually did want to talk to you about my day, but I don't for fear that it will turn into another fight. I just wish things were okay between us, but there not, sorry.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

It's raining out; I love it. So my windows are open because I love the way the rain sounds/ smells, but now I'm cold. I've been having an issue with being cold lately, especially my hands. They are always freezing. Now I'm extra cold because the windows are open and the rain is basically splashing me threw the screen. And the song 'When it rains' by Paramore just came on my ipod. Oh the irony.
I don't know why I felt the need to share that with you all, but I did. So anyways...
I've been in school for about two weeks and a half weeks, I think. I don't really know because we started on a Wednesday, then had the next Friday through Monday off for labor day. So I think this is my first full week of school, but again, I have no idea what I'm talking about. I sweat it's felt like we've been in school for at least a month. There is so much work!!! These are the courses I am taking if your interested: AP English III, Algebra II, Chemistry I honors, Choir, Ballroom dance, Aerobics/yoga, US history honors, French IV honors, and I have one study hall 8th period Fridays!
The work for AP English and chem are ridiculous, there is too much. And it's all self assigned work so we're not being graded on it, but you have to do it to pass the class. That annoys me. Because I tend to put everything off until the last minute, but in chem there is no "last minute" because you don't pass in any work (well, except lab reports/ projects and tests) and if you get to the point that you doing things at the last minute, that basically means you failed.
And ugh ballroom dance. I don't dance. I am absolutely horrible at dancing. And yet, I am taking ballroom dance? I wish I was in Jon's class, so we could suck at dancing at dancing together, but of course I'm not:P HAHAHA he's the only guy in his class <3
Then there's US history. We are going paperless! wow. I am totally for recycling, really I am. I brought home all my recyclable things last year when we didn't have recycling bins at school. But doing everything on our moronic netbooks is just, well, moronic. Oh yeah, the school wasted a butt load of cash on these super mini laptops they expect us to carry around everywhere and us instead of agendas. They have blocked everything on them and it is very annoying. And the freeze and shut down all the time;nobody likes them or wants them.
So those are my classes and the ones I didn't mention, are just boring and uninteresting. I absolutely love my 8th period on Friday because it is a free period because I can leave school early!!! And it's practically the only time I see Jon at school, so that's nice.
What else is new? Oh, the musical 'Bye Bye Birdie' has begun taking shape, kind of. There is a whole bunch of dancing and also a lot of 4 part music! My father is rather ecstatic about that (he is the musical director). The story of 'Bye Bye Birdie' is rather pointless and "wholesome" as my father describes it. Well, except for that one line: "Lets have an orgy!" I have a total of one line! WOW, your mind is blown, right? No, I really don't care, I just really enjoy preforming and being part of the whole experience. And I do sing some solos, so that sort of makes up for the lack of lines. My name is Penelope Ann Hankle. Such an unfortunate name in my opinion.
SO, there's the update on my rather boring life.


Friday, August 20, 2010

Sooo, I want this dog...or this type of dog. I met one that lives on my street today ans she is so cute and well behaved and so sweet. It is a German Shepard and Siberian husky mix! OMG I want one and would probably name her Latika or Mimi. If it was a boy, I'd name him Carlisle.

Random thoughts by MX

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Story I wrot about Montreal...

The Closest Thing To Europe

Somehow I feel like I will never forget that day. The warm May sun beat down on us as the cool breeze tugged gently at our hair.
“I can’t believe we’re finally here” I whispered in your ear as you softly kissed my head. Everything felt so right being here, together.
As we strolled down the narrow, winding streets of Old City, Montréal, I looked around trying to take everything in. It is all so beautiful and perfect, it is almost overwhelming. All around us are old, magnificent buildings designed in an authentic European style; all made of ancient stone and brick with wooden doors. My father always told me that traveling to the Old City was the closest thing to traveling to Europe without crossing the ocean. Never had he been so right.
Little cafés line the streets and people gather in the squares to watch street performers and mimes. The aroma of various different foods that had drifted out of restaurants open windows mixed with the fragrance of pipe smoke filled the air. And the sound of city life followed us everywhere; the roar of mopeds, the hum of conversations in thick Canadian French, the click-clop of horse hooves against the coble stone, plus the joyful noise of the music festival that was going on that day. All these things combined with the charming sound of your laughter, is the most stunning noise I have ever heard.
As we enter Place Jacques- Cartier, the fresh scent of flowers is overpowering. The square is filled with an astounding array of brightly colored flowers and various, unique street venders selling all kinds of merchandise. The hysterical laughter of a group of high school students fills the square as they watch, in outstanding amusement, a street mime tease their friends. It’s hot, and we’re both sweating, but we hold hands anyway. My fingers interlocked in yours feels so incredibly right, I don’t want to let go. I looked up at the sky, which is a dark blue eliminated with what little sunlight was left. The air was clear as crystals when they shine in the light. Taking a deep breath, I swear I could taste the bitter sweetness of Montréal’s city air.
After a marvelous day with you, I stop to take a final glance of admiration for the scenic, deep-rooted buildings, the rigid streets, the dazzling flora, and for the city in which I had fallen in love in. As we walked hand in hand through this picturesque world we had fallen in love with and in, I realized somehow I would never forget this day.

Summer Update

So I can not sleep at all. I am not tired at all. I think it's that damn redvine I ate at like 8 at night. They taste like crap, so don't buy them. I had to (if you've seen A Very Potter Musical, you'd understand)
Jon can't sleep either so we're playing truth or dare over text skype chat. I kind of suck at that game. We're basically just doing truths because it's quit hard to do dares when your not together. So, I'm running out of truths. But oh well, I just want to talk to him. I've seen him like twice this summer because he works at an all boys camp as a counselor and then when he got done work he was sick for a week. So, that's pretty much sucked, but it's all good becuase I'll hopefully see him tomorow (well, today...later).
This summer has been one of the most laid back summers I have ever had, which is good I guess. Actually, no that's a really good thing because I have had so much AP summer work to do. I have one more essay due Monday, and then I'm done! For the summer, which is kid of sad becaue school starts like a week later. And I have yet to start this essay, by the way.
I did go to Canada with my dad. We drove the hour from my camp to Canada, just to see Godspell at a local high school. I love my dad. It was an awesome production and Godspells my favorite musical next to Rent, so the drive was so worth it.
I also spent I weekend in North Conway for my friends sweet sixteen! And it was very sweet...we had a limo and we stayed in this awesome hotel room themed as a movie theater and of course we went shopping! It was cool and all, but it was increadibly awkward because the girl who's birthday it was, I'm really not good friends with, like at all. And I wasn't friends with anyone else that went either. But I guess I made the best of it.
I've had a lot of quality time at my grandparents camp in the middle of nowhere, I've spent a lot of time wwith my dad, some time with my friends (they are all working, it's not fair!), a few days working at a cleaning job, and the rest of the summer doing nothing! :)

SO I'm still not tired, so I'm probaly going to post about the tour i went to with the choir becasue I haven't done that yet...


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me ( i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear, and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for you beautiful are my world,my true)and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing to you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root the bud of the bud the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher then the soul can hope or the mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
-E.E. Cummings Jon sent me the link to this poem and told me that it was one of his favoritenpoems
and that it was my poem now.

New favorite poem and guy? I think so

Saturday, May 22, 2010


So, there was this guy....

I love when stories start like that but usually they are stories being told to me, but finally I'm the one telling the story.

His name is Jon.

What happened was he invited my friend (R) to prom, not as a date really but just as friends. He then actually brought his sister as a "date" so that she could go to prom (she is a freshman). So then (R), who was "going to prom" with Jon, brought me as a "date" so that I could also go to prom. We (me, jon, his sister, R and 3 other girls from my school) all ended up going out to dinner and then to prom together. There was really no dates, it was just a group of friends. And it was a blast. Haha side note, but since we were early for prom, we went to whole foods and rode around in shopping carts and posed to take pics with random people and food. Oh, good times!!!!

Anyway, me and Jon ended up dancing together. Alot. We had such a great time, it was amazing. Now I had been friends with him before prom night, but we really connected that night.

After that, we started hanging out alot more. Like, all the time. So, R told me a few days after prom that Jon told her that he really liked me. It felt a litle middle school, but what ever. So, I was kinda hoping he would say something to me because I actually really liked him. Of course, him being his shy, awkward self, he didn't. But it was all good, because a few days later, I decided to say somrthing to him at CS rehersal. I basically just told him how much I liked him and he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend.

So, we've been going out for about a month, and I couldn't be happier about it. We are so much alike, it's amazing. What i find even more amazing, is that ever time I talk to him, I learn something new about him and every time I talk to him, I like him more and more.

He's such a sweet heart. He is that guy that everyone laughs at for his awkwardness, but yet everyone loves. God, i don't even know how to describe him. Jon is so funny and he is such a hopeless romantic.

So , yep thats my love story...

Sunday, May 2, 2010

So, I really want to start blogging again. I hope people are still reading...(Besides my dad :P)

Schools been busy, so much work! Then there's drama. I went right from Alice into Zap. Actually not right into it because I didn't get a role when I firts auditioned, but then someone dropped out and I got her role as Olga Barchokcovitch, the Russian aunt. Sunday was the last show of Zap, which I'm really excited very glad about because it's been a rather stressful production with everone dropping out. But it was also sad because it was the seniors final production in high school. The cast and crew went out to Friendly's after the set strike, which was a blast because we're all insane and don't really care what people think of us. I had to wear this giant butt for the play and I fit it into my jeans. Guess who went to Friendly's with a ghetto booty? That was hilarious, people gave me strange looks! Then my friend took my yankees hat i was wearing, so I chased after him. As I did that, my friend, Em who was driving me home, got in her car with my other friend and left. In the process of driving away, Em ran over my hat, which my friend had thrown at a seagull. Oh fun times! And then there were all th "that's what she said" jokes, but i don't even want to get into that...

This weekend is prom. I'm going although I'm a sophmore. My friends gunna get me in. I so excited! I have an awesome dress (which i'll post a pic of ASAP). I should be so much fun. I have plans to go out to eat with my friends before the dance and I have never really been to a good dance. SO HAPPY =)

My grades are good, we just got report cards and I had all A's and a friggin B for biology. Eh, oh well. I still like the class, I just totally suck at the tests. The other day, we watched the movie Gattaca in class. It was awesome! It is about a futureist world where you can choose every aspect of what your child will be like before it is born. If you haven't seen it, google it.

I also made National Honors Society and French Honors Society!

What else...Well, the Chamber Singers (my dad's choir) are getting reafy to go on tour. We are going to Montreal! I am so excited because I've never been there and I want to see the underground mall and sing at Notre-Dame.

Wow, at this time last year, I was struggling with my mother about whether or not I should switch schools. I can not believe how far I have come this year. Everything is going so right. My school is better then anything I ever iimagined it to be last year. Not to say that my life is perfect. It's far from that. I've had my struggles with friends, family, depression and grades (and not to mention the fact I still miss Mp and my friends from my old school. I wish I had kept in touch with them. I am going to their musical on Thursday, so it will be good to see them all.) But things are just generally better. And I am so grateful for where I am today and everyone who helped make that possible...


Sunday, March 7, 2010

I just realized that I haven't posted once this year. I've just been to busy. I'm telling you, theater neats up your time. It's worth it though. I just finneshed a production of ALiCE, A One Act. it came in seconnd in our regional dramma festival :) My next show I am doing is called ZAP! It's suppose to be a very funny play and there is a Russian role in it that I really hope I get!

Other then drama, I have had massive amounts of homework to do because I missed some school when I went to Florida. That was a lot of fun, I go to see my cousins whio just moved back from South Korea and my uncel who got back from Iraq 9 months ago. That was the first time me and my sis flew alone. kinda scary....

Schools going. Good grades, I love my friends, and i have awesome classes. I am taking guitar <3, but I'm not very good :/ Oh well.

oh ya, and I turned 16 on monday :D It's really not that exciting though. I didn't have a party or anything because 0f one acts, which was fine. But I did get a braclet from Russia that my parents got when they adopted me and my sis. I thought that was so special!

What boys, no drivers ed. Hmmm there's Maya4Life who has declared shew never wants to speak top me again because of a stupid prank. w/e I have great friends that I've made this year.

I've been reading breaking Dawn and I am in love with it! One of my friends reminds me so much of edward and when he takes off his shirt, ahhh! :)

alright, that all for now. Hopefully i'll have the time to write again soon!