Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Confusion Is My Daily Status....

I just had a nice talk with Mp, about wanting to leave this school. My mother e-mailed him just to ask for some guidance, not to have him talk to me. (He decided to do that on his own because he said he cared about his students, including me.) He told me that I should stay at this school for a year and just look at it with a more oped mind. He also said that this was part of God's plan for me, even if I don't see that. Than we talked about Friends, family, etc... It was nice to have some on else opinion about if I should transfer schools. He also said I could talk to him I needed someone else to talk to. He reminds me so much of the other Mp...

The other Mp was my 5th grade teacher who quickly became my mentor and was always there for me. She died of pancreatic cancer the summer between 6th and 7th grade. I have never been able to have a good relationship with a teacher. But I really like Mp, he makes going to this school so much better. He says that I shouldn't stay here just because of him, but he is truly the only reason why I want to be here. He cares he; is going to be one of those people who is going to change the world for at least one teenager, if not many.

Anyway, my convo with him got me out of this daydream I have been in for the last week and back into reality. I need to start think very seriously about what I like about this school and what I don't. I need to just step back and look at this whole situation and possible understand it a little better. Mp says I should just stay here for the rest of the year and then see what happened, but I am thinking about beyond this year in to the next four years of high school. I feel that if I stay here at this school for the rest of the year, I will be trapped here for the next three years very unwillingly.

I guess for now I will have to take it one day at a time and just try to appreciate and accept all that this school has to offer...

Till I can figure out my life,


Thursday, December 11, 2008


Well, it is 11:30 on this wonderful Thursday afternoon, and we just got released from school due to bad weather. Which is kind of Ironic since it isn't even snowing. Oh well, at least I don't have to go to classes.

Lots has happened since the lat time i wrote. First of all, l there was Thanksgiving break, which was quit a production! I spent most of my time w/ cousins (I have like 20) and when we all get together, it is nonstop laughs and fun. There is occasionally some drama and tension, but it is usually all in good fun. I also got to see Twilight over the break. It was one of the most amazing movies I have ever seen. I have read all the books (besides the newest one) and it was so incredible to see it on the screen. That movie is so romantic, and adventurous, and mysterious. I simple love it! It is like the next Harry Potter to me.

Okay, done being obsessive Twilight fan. After break our schools production of The Time Machine opened and closed in like three days. We had some good shows, we had some bad shows, but all in all it was great fun. We all so had a great cast party and we also went out a lot after the shows. Also during my production, my father's (he is a choir director) Christmas concert opened. Now, where I live, this concert is a huge thing and my dad usually hires a star guest to preform (More than likely it is usually a Broadway star) This year hew got Capathia Jenkins. She is so amazingly nice, I love her! But I didn't get to go out to dinner with her like my sister did because I had to go to work (aka, my show)

Now we are going to have a snow day tomorrow and I am really glad because I really don't want to take a math test! By the way I got my d- in math to a d!! What an improvement, not. But E said he would help me study!! Well, that's all till the next addition of the boring life and times of MX...